I’ve been a Christian since I was six years old, but for some reason it has taken me nearly two decades to really take it seriously. I’m at the point now where I simply do not believe each and every word that is preached to me unless I meditate and pray about it earnestly. I feel a certain conviction if I allow myself to accept something as “the truth” because it is from a “trusted source” (such as a pastor, leader, friend, etc.) It is becoming clear to me that I need to go directly to the source… God.

Lately, I’ve been taking a different approach to reading the Bible. I used to rely on my own wisdom to understand God’s Will throughout my journey. I would often get “big headed” if I had a revelation while reading the Bible. My past intentions for reading the Bible were clearly prideful. I am coming to realize that my wisdom is a drop in the ocean compared to God’s wisdom. The more I rely on myself to understand God’s word; the less God reveals to me. The more I rely on God’s Holy Spirit to find wisdom and understanding, the more God blesses my efforts to seek him.

1 Corinthians 2:10-12
But we know these things because God has revealed them to us by his Spirit, and his Spirit searches out everything and shows us even God’s deep secrets. No one can know what anyone else is really thinking except that person alone, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. And God has actually given us his Spirit (not the world’s spirit) so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us.